Demon Tome

Name: Ashura chan

Gender: female

Location: Currently, the 7th circle of Hell.

Sign: Boar & Lion

Email: Piglet9161@hotmail.com

MSN Messenger: Look above :P

Layout: (Christina Speaking) Dammit, since I did this layout, I'M describing it. >:D It's Lain from Serial Experiments Lain in a lovely cropped rectangular shape with the spatter brushes from hell. Font is Enya.

Favorite anime:
Gravitation
Chobits
Fruits basket
Battle Angel Alita
Clamp X (until the ending)
The wish video (it is so cute)
Kareshi kanojo no jijou
Getbackers
Serial expermiment lain

Favorite Manga:
Wish
Blade of the Immortal
RG Veda
Gravitation
Chobits
Mars
Kareshi kanojo no jijou,
Wild Rock

Favorite Anime character:
Shuichi from gravitation, Subaru from X, Ashura from RG Veda, Koruyuu from wish, Ayame souma from fruits basket,Ban-chan and Ginji from Getbackers, Kiba from Wolf's rain

Icon Studios
Home star runner
Something awful
liquid generation

Justin
Tina-ya~!
Christin
Chad the Evil mexican
Alex
Phillip the Tall man
Russell
Cyn
Ryan
Irish princess

Version 1.0
Title: Bound by Fate
Chara: Kamui
Series: X
Artist: Mokona Apapa
Font: Violation
Misc: Christina made this layout

September 2002


AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave
and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to
console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty
for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when
provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in
the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance
against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and
caring. Loves to make friends .

What does your birth month say about you?
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She last sent them back to hell at 03:36 p.m. Sunday, July 25, 2004


DAMN! it has been so long since I posted I doubt anyone will see this. I got my wisdom teeth out. I was out of action almost a week and three days. Sucked majorly but I feel better then i did last week. The one part that hurts it the place where the bastard got lazy and didn't tie the stitchs well. I found this on chris's website it is funny lets see how well you do I did a 7. http://homepage.ntlworld.com/djol/b3ta/mob.html?A=0&B=1&C=0&D=0&E=1&F=0&G=1&H=1&I=1&J=1&K=0&L=0
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Ki-lin A mythical being of Chinese mythology, comparable
with the western unicorn. Ki-lin personifies
all that is good, pure, and peaceful. It lives
in paradise and only visits the world at the
birth of a wise philosopher. The Ki-Lin is
said to walk on earth and on water. It never
drinks or eats dirty food or water. The Chinese
unicorn never treads on smaller animals below
its feet nor does it ever harm another living
creature. The Ki-Lin is the emblem for
exquisite goodness, longevity, grandeur,
endless compassion and great wisdom. According
to Chinese mythology, at the birth of Confucius
a Ki-Lin appeared and Confucius died soon after
a Ki-Lin was killed, he believed that his
writings would not proceed from the omen of the
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Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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She last sent them back to hell at 09:38 p.m. Saturday, July 10, 2004


Ninja
NINJA: I never saw you. You're a professional,
but you don't get to take the credit for your
work that other assassins do. The night is
your only ally, and you wouldn't have it any
other way.

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She last sent them back to hell at 10:48 p.m. Friday, May 28, 2004


So once more in my life of disappoints I have been betrayed, again. The story of my life. ANd it sucks, Russell lets run away together and you can have my babies. I don't know what the hell I'm doing. There is suppose to be a break but there isn't one. And I think I need one. how can i heal when i see the face that lied to me everyday, I can't. Why? Why did you do this to me? What the hell did you have to gain? Nothing, even if it was a good intention. I am now broken inside again. And I wish there was something I could do to put me back together.

She last sent them back to hell at 08:04 p.m. Monday, May 3, 2004


So I don't know I'm here stressing over school, my car, and evrything else. I'm beginning to wonder if anything is worth my time anymore. The more time I spend in sometime the more it seems I fuck up. Oh yeah for those who don't know I got into a car accident on friday and totalled my car. also did a 180 in my car. scary but hey I'm alive. Has my attitude changed I don't know, don't ask such irrevalent questions. I don't know anything, the mind is a complex thing, you think you know yourself but blam you learn something new about yourself everyday. And what I learn I doubt you want to know.

She last sent them back to hell at 09:40 p.m. Wednesday, April 21, 2004



What Type of Villain are You?
mutedfaith.com.

I'm a Heretic!



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She last sent them back to hell at 09:30 p.m. Wednesday, March 17, 2004


DarkMagic
Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!

Please rate ^^

What kind of dark person are you?
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marijuana

You are Marijuana!

Laid back, dreamy, and maybe a little stinky from skipping a shower.
You rather hang out on the couch watching That 70s Show than go clubbing.
All you need is a big joint, TV, and some Twinkies covered in chocolate syrup!

What Drug Are You?
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kinky isn't a feather...its using the whole damn chicken! and you kno it. you are so kinky that even you are afraid of yourself sometimes.
kinky isn't a feather...its using the whole damn
chicken! and you kno it. you are so kinky that
even you are afraid of yourself sometimes.

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you "hidden" emotion is depression, no
one understands so why do i even bother, the
stars are my only friends and one day soon i'll
join them.....

What emotion do you try to hide?
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Schitzo
Schitzo! Ur pretty much nuts. You have multiple
personalities, and sometimes you have trouble
making up decisions since so many of you have
different opinions. A simple question like

If you were to be taken in at the mental institution, what would be the reason?
brought to you by QuizillaSchitzo! Ur pretty much nuts. You have multiple personalities, and sometimes you have trouble making up decisions since so many of you have different opinions. A simple question like
Alone
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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She last sent them back to hell at 07:52 p.m. Monday, March 1, 2004


She last sent them back to hell at 02:52 p.m. Wednesday, February 11, 2004


goodbroken
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

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How very fitting on how i feel right. So i talked to Caren and it didn't go well. Such is life. And life sucks. Oh yeah tina-ya heath was in the school paper again about friendster and yeah you should call me.

She last sent them back to hell at 09:58 p.m. Friday, February 6, 2004


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Tell Me About Your Sex Life? by electronicoffee
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Sexuality
Favorite Postionyou like to take them from behind
Secret Fetishheavy bondage [give]
Age of Lost Virginity29
Bedroom Talentyou always keep a secret
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My outercourse activity is french kissing!

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She last sent them back to hell at 08:16 a.m. Saturday, January 24, 2004


Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||| 66%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||| 70%
Borderline |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Histrionic || 10%
Narcissistic |||||||||||| 50%
Avoidant |||||||||||||| 54%
Dependent |||||||||||| 50%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||||||| 74%
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She last sent them back to hell at 05:16 p.m. Monday, November 24, 2003

Sorry, sorry
I know it has been a while since I last worte a lot has happened in the past few weeks, some i don't care to discuss some is up for grabs. My mom is here and she is trading in my car for a different car. :P I got a hair cut today and was surprised and how much a simple cut costs. I will now always wait until i go home to korea to get a hair cut. I have two tests this week. yuck. Justin I miss you too. Kristin I saw you last week comeinto my class to fix the comp. but i was in the back and didn't want to yell and wave like and idiot. well of to finish studying.

She last sent them back to hell at 07:58 p.m. Sunday, November 2, 2003


Men are dogs, and my sister's husband is a prime example.

She last sent them back to hell at 02:11 p.m. Sunday, September 28, 2003

a history lesson for tina-ya
Ok on the Coreaand korea thing. When japan ruled korea it changed the spelling from c to k so that the korean would always be behind them in the alphabet since they saw koreans has lower then them. the debate about changing the name back to corea is something that has been going around for a few years.. end lesson

She last sent them back to hell at 04:29 p.m. Wednesday, September 24, 2003

I am lock in my head with what I've done
Today has been a long day and very emotional on my part. Did something I haven't done in a long time, think. Sounds silly but I've been on shut-off mode for about a year now. And now the n flood gates are open and I see what is beyond them and it does not please me. I realized just how utterly and completely alone i am right now. I have no one. I am back to where i was four years ago. What i thought i had is an illusion that drew upon in the canvas of my mind. How the brillant colors blinded me from the truth, the harsh reality of life. That i was mean to be alone. I will always be alone. And there is nothing I can do to solve it. hehe.... almost everyone out there except a very few, who read this journal, do not know this side of, many have never seen it, I ask how can you know a person who you don't even truly know. I don't share myself like you do, I can't , I won't and that is what torments me so. The total isolation from everyone, but then i do it to myself. God how i have become, forgive me hee-ya. I know i must disappoint you. To go to one of the strongest people you knew into proably one of the weakest. ironic in a way. what else is there to say. Oh yeah, thank you, eric, for fucking up my life in way you will never understand.

She last sent them back to hell at 07:32 p.m. Monday, September 22, 2003

a warm place
Very tired. Mind very disorganized. need rest, and peace of mind. Not of which i find here. May this isn't right, I have all I could ever asked for and more but still I lack...I wish i new what it was. I wish i knew. off now....don't know where but if i find it I will tell you

She last sent them back to hell at 09:47 p.m. Monday, September 15, 2003

cheddar and garlic biscuits yyyyyummmmmmmmmmm
so today was school. Tomorrow is school and work. Tina_ya I miss you. I'm going to call you tomorrow night or so and tell you about something. You are going to flip your shit. HAHAHAHA. Got you interested yet? So my mom isn't going to come until oct 27. now. she keeps changing her arrival date. Aigoo. Well i have hw so until next time. I AM A BANANA

She last sent them back to hell at 05:02 p.m. Thursday, September 11, 2003


Viz is putting out Basara, tina-ya. I bought it. Guess what, RG VEDA and Tokyo BAbylon are being published by Tokyopop in 2004. I read it at rightstuf.com. I'm so happy. HAd a good day at work.Japanese class is fun. well I need to shower.

She last sent them back to hell at 07:32 p.m. Friday, September 5, 2003


So here I am at 7:47 with no hw to do and no one to talk to. I don't know. Once again I float in the void, not knowing where excatly I am going with my life or even if i will be anything other then being miserable. I look and i don't like the direction my life is taking. Where am I going? What am I doing with my life? These questions I can not answer. Anyway, I sit and ponder and i just depress myself so i think i'm going to go and read the manga I picked up today. YAH! Wild Act 2

She last sent them back to hell at 07:47 p.m. Wednesday, September 3, 2003


HAHAHAHAHA.... I love how pity people are. Tina-ya I think you are handling this well don't worry about that person who is trying to put you down. because it is true you know your shit better then she does. I Don'tthink I will make it for thanksgiving becauase my rents are going to be in the states so I don't know. AS for YAoi con how much is it going to cost. Email me your phone number and we will talk. I just hope you still check my blog. Well I'm going to go watch elven goodness AKA Legolas.

She last sent them back to hell at 11:36 a.m. Monday, September 1, 2003


Well school is finally back in and yeah first day and i already messing up. I wanted to speak korean in Japanese. Got out at 9:30am and wentto the book store and i was anally raped on books. I got two books that i need for my JAPN 1001 and it cost me 110.64 FOR TWO FRIGGIN' BOOKS. ugh. Tina-ya e-mail me your phone number so i can call you. I Miss u. I actually like my scehdule this semster so yah! for me. Off to feed.

She last sent them back to hell at 06:52 p.m. Monday, August 25, 2003


Secretary
You must like to spank or be spanked, because your
romance is remeniscent of Secretary. A truly
modern love story, it shows that you don't need
to be conventional to be normal. You're
probably the type that owns a whole lot more
leather than what's upholstering your car or
sofa. Yeah, you know what I mean.

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She last sent them back to hell at 01:19 p.m. Sunday, August 10, 2003


Thats for sure...
Well I always knew it but now this t-shirt says it
for me! Yay!

What Are You From www.Engrish.com?
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She last sent them back to hell at 08:05 a.m. Saturday, August 9, 2003



You are a Silent Dreamer... Some say your a freak, others say your very
blunt, but the truth is your just
misunderstood. You understand a lot more then
you let on, but that doesn't stop you from
letting them think what they want. Who cares?
Your you, that's all thats importaint.

What kind of Dreamer are you?
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yuki
You're Yuki - the mouse.

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She last sent them back to hell at 07:53 a.m. Saturday, August 9, 2003


Hey, well yeah I'm in korea still but i will return. Tina-ya i found Wild rock in the electronic market. Brand new copy for 10,000. So happy. I almost creamed myself when i found it. Everything in myong-dong and the electronic market is changed or gone. Off to the mini-mart to pick up some gifts. later.

She last sent them back to hell at 01:14 p.m. Tuesday, July 29, 2003

eating steamed sweet potatoes
So yeah, i'm in korea and I tried to email andrew but his e-mail account doesn't exist anymore, so baby, if you read this you need to e-mail me. Took CYn to market and to base she is so excited. Her uncle is coming to pick us up tonight for a few days. I kinda don't want to go because i want to spend time with my family. oh well. well i'm off to attack the sweet potatoes.

She last sent them back to hell at 03:50 p.m. Wednesday, July 16, 2003


HAHAHAHA! some people shouldn't talking aboutthings that they don't know shit about it is too funny. I just read meghan's journal and she mentioned north korea and it is just so funny because she has no idea what the fuck she is talking about. Well Cyn and me leave for korea in less then 24 hours and yeah it should be fun. two and a half weeks. yeah.

She last sent them back to hell at 11:32 a.m. Sunday, July 13, 2003

feverish and dizzy
So i'm sick and it is hard to see straight so i didn';t go to work because that would involve driving, a task that i can't do right now without maybe getting into a wreck. SO i've been sleeping and sweating out this fever. everytime i get up my legs give out on me,i realizedlast night that i want to go home. I REALLY REALLY want to go home. I want a break from here i can't take it. I just want to go home and leave everything behind. Maybe i won't come back. I'm thinking about it. Who would cry if i left , who would feel my passing? My this is the fever talking i don't know.i should eat but i don't know. maybe i'll just starve myself to death. it isn't like i'm not skinny enough already. i'll go now

She last sent them back to hell at 03:07 p.m. Saturday, June 28, 2003


Well my ticket home is scheduled for the 14 of july. I'll be going home and taking CYn with me. But i will return. I just need a change i think right now. Maybe an image change of something. Work is work. School is school and i hate math. well that is enough for now.

She last sent them back to hell at 07:12 p.m. Sunday, June 22, 2003


Dark Water
You come from Dark Water. You are solitary and
find peace in yourself, or maybe you're
turmoiled but pull off peace.

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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The Jackal

What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?
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Result Otaku
~Otaku~ You are a fun loving, tomboyish girl! You
love anime and video-games, and can hang out as
youself around your friends. You are unique and
individual and don't care much about what
others think of you. You take great pleasure in
kicking everyone's ass in your favourite video
game! Shame on you...n.n;

What Type Of Girl Are You?
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being an otaku is bad. nnnnoooooooooo

She last sent them back to hell at 10:22 p.m. Sunday, June 15, 2003


Info Grey
Your Heart is Grey

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She last sent them back to hell at 04:03 p.m. Sunday, June 8, 2003


Depressed..
You're depressed. Really you are. And you
definitely have a reason. You often space out
and stare at things blankly, even if you're
normally hyper and energetic. This is because
nothing really seems important anymore. You
might just be sad right now, or you might be
manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa
and stuff'll be ok.

How Depressed are You?
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She last sent them back to hell at 07:49 p.m. Thursday, June 5, 2003


I am the Anti-Seducer

Seducers draw you in by the focused, individualized attention they pay to you. Anti-seducers are the opposite: insecure, self-absorbed, and unable to grasp the psychology of another person, they literally repel. Anti-Seducers have no self-awareness, and never realise when they are pestering, imposing, talking too much. Root out anti-seductive qualities in yourself, and recognise them in others - there is no pleasure or profit in dealing with the Anti-Seducer.

Symbol: The Crab. In a harsh world, the crab survives by its hardened shell, by the threat of its pincers and by burrowing into the sand. No one dares get too close. But the Crab cannot surprise ists enemy and has little mobility. Its defensive strength is its supreme limitation.


What Type of Seducer are You?
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Book Worm Meter for erica
Shut In 71%
..
29% Out Of The House
Intellectual 95%
..
5% Moron
High Attention Span 95%
..
5% Low Attention Span
Bookitude 70%
..
30% Book Burner
Book Worm 82.75%
..
17.25% Bug Stomper
Take your bookworm readings.


My Romance Meter
Optimist 35%
..
65% Cynic
Close 41%
..
59% Distant
Long Term 43%
..
57% Brief
What does my romance meter read?

My Favorite Male Part Is:

The Butt: Round and firm.

Thats where I branded him.

Find out your favorite male body part!

She last sent them back to hell at 06:47 p.m. Thursday, June 5, 2003


You are Venom!
Take the "Which Marvel Comics Hero are you" quiz!

She last sent them back to hell at 02:09 p.m. Thursday, June 5, 2003


I know it has been forever and a day since i wrote my last entry. I got a job so i'm actually working now. HAnging out with Andrew a lot. But other then that i'm just being my normal anti-social self. I work tomorrow the joy. But at least i get paid this weekend so that is cool. Promised i would take Andrew out to dinner when i got paid. So i will. So yeah life is ....life Don't know what else to say about it. I Realize the pace and futility of life now that i started working, It is a cycle and it isn't fun. I like working but yet it makes life seems so useless at the same time. I don't know maybe i'm just underestimating what the true meaning of life is. If there is a meaning. I'm about ready to call school quits for a semester and go back home. But i won't i can't quit I know that much. Besides my parents qould just be sooooo Thrilled. HA! Well anyway, Tina I'm glad you are having fun in CAli, Miss ya. Russell glad things are going well. Cyn make a damn entry

She last sent them back to hell at 01:54 p.m. Thursday, June 5, 2003


Which Piercing are you?

She last sent them back to hell at 12:40 p.m. Monday, May 12, 2003


semesephi
The Yaoi Selector: Which Seme are You?

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She last sent them back to hell at 12:33 p.m. Monday, May 12, 2003



Your Zoe! Your Elmo's best friend and you have the
ability to speak in two different languages!

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just makes you want to huggle a bunny until his brains come out his ears

She last sent them back to hell at 12:59 p.m. Saturday, May 10, 2003


Rough
Rough: You are the Rough Sex Freak. You like it
rough and hard. ::smack:: You like wings,
chains, and swing sets. You love someone to
pull your hair and do you hard. Be careful
with your sex partners because once they are
done with sex, they will leave you flat.

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this is my way to live
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I took the fruity fruit quiz
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Check out which fruit you are

She last sent them back to hell at 04:14 p.m. Friday, May 9, 2003


Last day of classes. Yeah.... Today is my mom's birthday so yeah... taking her out to dinner and then to the male strip show. She should enjoy that but anyway
.heterosexual
You are heterosexual.

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As if there was any doubt

She last sent them back to hell at 09:18 a.m. Friday, May 9, 2003


I know i haven't been able to update ecept for stupid quizzes but hey just didn't have the energy to write. OMG Russell and Phillip are dating....all my yaoi fantasies in ...real life. And yes Russell i don't care what you say you are the uke. UKE. UKE. *~I'm a little fairy here's my wings~* But anyway. I hate studying and studying and studying more, that is why i took a break yesterday and just spent time with Andrew because i haven't spent anytime with him. soon school with be over then i have two weeks to find a job before summer classes. Well tired just wanted to state that the yaoi couple and yeah ...end thought

She last sent them back to hell at 09:38 p.m. Sunday, May 4, 2003


So goth you're dead!
You are every goth-kids dream!

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She last sent them back to hell at 04:34 p.m. Sunday, May 4, 2003


pierce
pierce

What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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She last sent them back to hell at 07:41 p.m. Thursday, May 1, 2003


uketsuzuki
The Yaoi Selector: Which Uke are You?

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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
Seventh Level of Hell Guarded by the Minotaur, who snarls in fury, and encircled within the river Phlegethon, filled with boiling blood, is the Seventh Level of Hell. The violent, the assasins, the tyrants, and the war-mongers lament their pitiless mischiefs in the river, while centaurs armed with bows and arrows shoot those who try to escape their punishment. The stench here is overpowering. This level is also home to the wood of the suicides- stunted and gnarled trees with twisting branches and poisoned fruit. At the time of final judgement, their bodies will hang from their branches. In those branches the Harpies, foul birdlike creatures with human faces, make their nests. Beyond the wood is scorching sand where those who committed violence against God and nature are showered with flakes of fire that rain down against their naked bodies. Blasphemers and sodomites writhe in pain, their tongues more loosed to lamentation, and out of their eyes gushes forth their woe. Usurers, who followed neither nature nor art, also share company in the Seventh Level.

She last sent them back to hell at 08:47 p.m. Wednesday, April 30, 2003


Today I found out that a firend of mine commited suicide. Just decide life wasn't worth living and killed himself. And here i sit and try and fight back tears. He was a great guy. I enjoyed his company whenever i saw him and now he is gone. I don't have anyone to joke with about certain things. He is just gone. And i just want to cry, and cry and cry. I don't want to do anything. just curl up in a ball and cry and be anti-social. This is what happens when you get close to people you get hurt and i'm hurting. How could he be so selfish? Doesn't he know the pain he would cause? I can'tthink anymore i'm off.

She last sent them back to hell at 04:30 p.m. Sunday, April 27, 2003


ok new jounral. Needing new layout but oo lazy to try and make one myself plus i know squat about design. My parents are in and oh yeah i crashed my car just got into an accident last thursday on the way home from school. Wasn't my fault it was the other person's but still I ended up crashing into a concrete barrier and busted my radiator and who knows what else. Well anyway, things happen life moves on I'm not dead so i guess i should be happy about it, but i have been having morbid thoughts lately and well can't say to much about it. I feel numb. Andrew called me and made me promise to smile for him today, even though i won't see him today. *sigh * such is life. Must find job.

She last sent them back to hell at 11:01 a.m. Wednesday, April 9, 2003